I'm in the thick of marathon training. It's four weeks until the race which means I have 1-2 weeks of heavy training left. My body is shattered. I have back pain that is not going away. My calves and hamstrings are tight. I am so tired I could sleep at the drop of a hat. My mind is fragile. I'm teetering somewhere between excited for the race and wanting to not do it at all. I want to quit with every workout I do and yet I'm excited to run every day. I am a mess. You would think with this fitness, now would be a good time to run a half marathon. Except, it wasn't. My body and my mind just said no and I had to work to finish the race.
That's me in the grey tank with black arm sleeves and green shoes.
I started off well, maybe even a little too fast. I was in the 7:30s-7:40s - a pace I should be able to hold. I was trying to calm down, though, as it felt a little tough and I knew there was a lot of race to go. With longer training, those first couple miles lie to you, so I kept telling myself that. Unfortunately, it wasn't until mile 5 that I felt good and also unfortunately, that seemed to be the only mile that felt okay.
You'll see in a lot of these pictures that I'm looking over to the right. Lots of speculation on Facebook as to why. It is actually because the husband and kid stayed home and I was hoping they'd surprise me and show up. I was always looking for them. I really wanted them there.
In my head I wanted to drop out of this race so badly - at the 5K mark, at the 10K mark. But the course is a one mile loop you do again and again. I could talk myself into doing "just" another loop.
Don't I look exhausted?
But, the marathon is a different beast and I don't have to run balls to the wall like I do in any other race. Plus, the marathon is at the beach so there will be other things to see. And the husband and maybe the kid will be there. I need my support team.
Just a few more weeks of focus and then the real goal.
For bonus blogging points....is this 26point2ers Amy's KOB? Dude, he was FLYING!!! He lapped me no fewer than 4 times during the half marathon.