Wednesday, November 09, 2005

When It Rains It Pours

And I'm not talking about the huge storms we had overnight.

I started this blog because I wanted talk about my running and share running stories with others online and read other stories. But there is so much crap going on that I just can't bring myself to write about running.

The job search has come to a stall. I have a lot of good leads and no matter that I am trying to be proactive I am not getting any calls or e-mails. It's really frustrating and I feel completely helpless.

Yesterday we got a complete kick in the gut. My husband works for a start-up company that has started up twice. The first time the business folded was right before we got married and Dave was unemployed about 4 months. The company went back in business under different management and is funded by a state grant. In just one month that grant is going to run out and although they have some other investments, it doesn't seem enough to sustain the business as it operates right now. Dave found out yesterday that starting in December he will only be working for minimum wage.

I cried. I cried at dinner with my parents. I don't really understand how two intelligent people have gotten themselves into the situation they're in. I'm worried about depleting my savings to pay for our house. I'm worried that I'm going to have to cancel cable and internet and phone service and sit around the house in blankets because we can't pay for our gas bills. I am trying to believe that God has bigger plans but I'm just not into the suffering for a life lesson thing.

Sorry for such a down entry. It's just been a rough time.


TryAthlete said...

I'm really sorry to read the news. I was unemployed for a spell and went through the sort of anguish and uncertainty, wondering when I would ever find work again, being worried about finances and all that. Try to take each week at a time - problems can sometimes seem amplified especially when the issues are on your mind all day. It's a rough patch the two of you are going through, and it's not your fault that things have turned out that way. I'm not particularly religious but maybe God wants to say "Trust me" at this point in time. The waiting is difficult, but you are both intelligent people and the opportunities will come.

Flatman said...

I am truly sorry for the situations, but know that things pass and they will get better. Keep are bright and will find something soon. Trust and faith are great attributes to have. Keep believing that things will work out soon! (and smile)

Michelle said...

I'm sorry to hear about all this. I think tryathlete has a good point about not getting ahead of yourself. You probably know this, but there's a verse in Matthew that says do not worry about tomorrow, because tomorrow has enough worries of it's own. I certainly understand the concern about money. My dad was without a regular, full-time job for years, (I'm not exaggerating), but my parents (mostly my mom) were able to keep it together enough to not only provide us with food and shelter, but the occasional extra. I'm sure you will make it through as well. Maybe you've already thought of this, but if a regular job doesn't open up soon, perhaps you could do temp jobs in the meantime, so you don't have to eat up all your savings. And not to sound cliche, but as you say, I'm sure God does have bigger plans. It's just really hard to believe that when you're in the middle of something so rotten. I'll be praying for you.

Val said...

We love you guys so much. Let us know what we can do to help. I'm serious! Never doubt for one minute that God's gotcha. It is so much easier to worry or doubt than to trust, but maybe that's what he wants you both to learn (or re-learn!) right now. You have a good support network and these other comments are right on. You'll find something or it'll find you! =)

Cliff said...

I am really sorry hear about what happen. I will pray for both of you tonight.