And I'm not talking about the huge storms we had overnight.
I started this blog because I wanted talk about my running and share running stories with others online and read other stories. But there is so much crap going on that I just can't bring myself to write about running.
The job search has come to a stall. I have a lot of good leads and no matter that I am trying to be proactive I am not getting any calls or e-mails. It's really frustrating and I feel completely helpless.
Yesterday we got a complete kick in the gut. My husband works for a start-up company that has started up twice. The first time the business folded was right before we got married and Dave was unemployed about 4 months. The company went back in business under different management and is funded by a state grant. In just one month that grant is going to run out and although they have some other investments, it doesn't seem enough to sustain the business as it operates right now. Dave found out yesterday that starting in December he will only be working for minimum wage.
I cried. I cried at dinner with my parents. I don't really understand how two intelligent people have gotten themselves into the situation they're in. I'm worried about depleting my savings to pay for our house. I'm worried that I'm going to have to cancel cable and internet and phone service and sit around the house in blankets because we can't pay for our gas bills. I am trying to believe that God has bigger plans but I'm just not into the suffering for a life lesson thing.
Sorry for such a down entry. It's just been a rough time.