Monday, December 26, 2011

My Midlife Crisis

My therapist says I need to be more real and authentic, especially in my public life. So here it is...

I'm going through a midlife crisis.

There's a lot to plays into this but this post is going to focus on the external: I am super self-conscious and generally loathe my appearance. Recently I went back to work. And once again I'm working in retail at a highly stylish company filled with young, attractive people. Although I am really enjoying my work and love the people I'm working with, being in my mid-30s there makes me feel like a dinosaur and I think I'm trying to overcompensate.

I mentioned on a Facebook post a few days ago that I was interested in going blonde and piercing my nose. My aunt said I was going through a midlife crisis. Another really good friend of mine said I needed to stop working with the youngin's. What I really need to do is be comfortable with myself. Instead I did this:



Yep, I went blonde. This picture doesn't do it justice. It's shockingly blonde and not natural looking whatsoever. I kinda hate it. People are gonna stare and it's made me feel even more self conscious.

But I now have a plan for my 2012 resolution...

**Update**
The next day my hair was still hideous and I was still hating the color. I immediately called the salon, made an appointment for a re-do, and got my hair colored back to it's "natural" color. Of course, it's not all that natural looking now. It's a little bit warmer than my natural color with a touch of red to it, but it's WAY better than the "blonde".

5 comments:

Katie Duffy said...

I can relate - I work in an office with a really high turnover / attrition rate, and almost everyone they hire is fresh out of college, but I'm in my mid 30's. It makes me feel MUCH older than I would otherwise, both in attitude and looks, but it's OK! You've got it figured out, so now you just have to actually do the work on it... wish I had as much self awareness!

Colleen said...

I actually REALLY like it! Change is good Meredith! :) Just rock it confidently and no one will question it! :)

Christy said...

I think it is cute. Personally I try for unnatural hair coloring. Mine is more unnatural than yours. Change is fun!

TriMOEngr said...

The great thing about hair color - you can always change it. I have a spot of gray a'la Stacy London (would be a skunk streak if I didn't color glaze my hair), but no biggie. I guess the blessing of mostly working with men in my career (and now even moreso that I work from home most days) is that I've rarely given a crap about how I look (sometimes this hasn't been a good thing). I agree with Colleen - walk in like you know how awesome you are and rock that hair! And if looking at it in the mirror starts to suck - go back and have it redone.

We're always here to "listen" if you need some therapy without the tab. :) Hang in there.

being30something said...

I loooove the cut! The blonde? Well... it will be a really good base for a bold color, right? ;)