It's probably because I'm a complainer or because I don't know how to be happy about anything, but life, in general, is really getting me down.
First is my job, but I don't want to be one of those people who is fired because they blogged about it so I'm not going to say anything here.
Secondly is my hair. (Go ahead and laugh.) I've been growing my hair for what seems like forever but I just don't think I am meant to have long ahir. It's really nice to have the ponytail for running and because I'm too lazy to fix my hair, but I can't wear my hair down and therein lies the frustration. My hair looks great right up to the ends of it and then it just has an attitude. And it doesn't matter if I trim it; it still looks bad on the ends. I would like to continue to try to grow it, but I'm really tired of wearing the ponytails day after day, but I would like to keep the ponytail for running. Maybe I'll just make an appointment to get it cut and then upon talking with the stylist will make a decision about what to do.
My last frustration is my weight. I've guess I've always had the thought that I run so I can eat, but recently I've been putting on the weight. Truly, every time I step on the scale I've gained another pound. Yesterday I maxed out at 117. Now I know that's not really all that bad, but I'm 5'1" and I exercise all the time. I should probably be under 110. I've never had to diet and I really don't want to. I know I need to eat better and smaller portions, but I'm so dang hungry all the time. My plan, right now, is smaller portion size, NO alcohol, NO chocoloate (I'm a candy baraholic), and eating better stuff.
These seem like really stupid frustrations, but they seem to encompass my entire life. Maybe at the age of 27 I should stop watching so much MTV. I'm not a teenager and I should stop wanting to look like a teenager. Sometimes I really feel like I'm going through this quarterlife crisis as I approach 30. Maybe I just need to do some yoga and stop complaining about the glorious life I have.