Let's just say, I'm socially awkward. Well, socially-don't-want-to-participate? I have a friend who is the most BEAUTIFUL woman ever and has this very put together life and family and she used to invite me to everything. I would always accept and then find a million excuses to get out of it. I love to be invited to things, but I don't actually want to go. I figure I'm going to be awkward and weird and I'd rather just stay home in my sweatpants.
A few weeks ago, I contacted the local swimming masters program. I knew they met early in the morning, which would work for my schedule, and I knew that they were good and had good participation. I have been interested for years but never did anything about it. Over the weekend, I heard back from the group with a very detailed email. I was excited and returned the email with plans to attend this week.
Last night I was crazy tired. I had gotten up at 5:30am to work out; spent the day running around trying to get last minute Christmas stuff done; and then finished the day with yet another workout (seriously, am I training for a marathon or an ironman??). I was exhausted by 8:00pm and crawled into bed at 10:00. That's pretty early for me. I was so tired that I was like "well, if I wake up at 5:00, I'll got to masters at 5:30" but I did not set an alarm.
Wouldn't you know I woke up on my own at 4:45 this morning?
I didn't go. I don't want to go alone. I feel like that new kid at school and everyone's staring at you. I don't want to be awkward. Plus, I just can't justify the cost of it when I already pay a coach who writes swim workouts and have a Y membership where I do my swimming.
Do you all swim masters? Do you do separate swim workouts from your triathlon coaches? Do you have a separate gym membership in addition to your masters program?